y dun let me make decision for my future???

i juz wan discuss v u about my future~~~~
i wish to study at taiwan so i only ask u can support me o nt??
but u seem like dunwan me go thr~~~~
juz ask me1 question~~~
u reli wish to study thr???
haiz~~~
if i dunwan study thr den y i wan to ask u leh???
sure i wan larr~~~~
at least if i study at taiwan i noe wat i wan to study~~~~
but in malaysia~~~~
i juz noe i study form 6 n den if lucky can study U~~~~
but U cant let me choose course~~~~
after i study U i reli dunno wat can i do???
if i dun like the course at U den how???
i dunwan take science again~~~~
i dunwan b doctor, dunwan b farmasi n so on~~~~~
tats was boring~~~~~
dun wish to study form 6 bcoz those stupid subject~~~~
if i continue study n keep take gud result, i will b crazy~~~~
i wish to change my environment to study~~~~
BUT i noe u wish me to study in malaysia~~~~
dunno wat cn i do??T.T
i cant choose my flavour course for my study n future~~~~
wat can i do???

taiwan?malaysia??@@

最近朋友建议我到台湾念书~~~~
给他讲下讲下我又想出去外面闯一闯~~~~
但是也因为很多因素没办法让我想去就去~~~~
一来我怕一个人过到去人生地不熟~~~
二来不想加重家里的负担~~~
而且担心在台湾读书没办法在马来西亚工作~~~~
那边英文又不好，担心我的英文越变越烂~~~~
到时候我只能待在台湾~~~
那怎么办？？？
又怕去到那边，全部用华语教课~~~~
我怕跟不上，毕竟我习惯了用马来文和英文~~~~
在国外，开支又大~~~~
担心负荷不来~~~
学费方面虽然有奖学金~~~~
但万一我考不上123名的话呢？？
没了奖学金，我岂不是要停学回国？？
不是很浪费？？？
不是我不想去台湾留学~~~~
而是有太多在我控制范围外的东西有可能发生~~~~
我不想做一些我没有把握的决定~~~~
还是听了佳宜的计划先~~~~
想回去退那张表格拿回我的钱~~~~
可是又没人载我去~~~~
haiz~~~~~
烦死了~~~~~
烦死我啦~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~T.T